Monday, December 22, 2008

Holding Back : Keeping A Promise.

As yeveryone apparently knows; I'm "being linked to a certain someone". as if it were some love story, each would ask how the progress is, I'd say..... it's there, but it's not moving.

It's time to tell you something:

I'm holding back-

I've held to a promise; I'm not sure when it'd be fulfilled, but the fact is, there is someone "else".




I'm not certain to what would happen. I doubt we'd be together as I'd hoped. I want to express this, what I'm feeling right now, through words. But somehow, I can't find the right ones. I'm kind of sad now, but I'm not sure. Happy? A bit. That person contacted me again after a long while- three-four? no five- six- seven! seven months-

I'm not sure what to think, especially after that night, where things went a little haywire. Things were revealed, moods changed, and here comes a message...

I'm sticking to the promise. I can't just break it. I've held to it for years, three apparently, and I'm not letting go. You can wait all you want, but for as long as you don't do anything, nothing will happen. I'm trying my best to pursue this, and so should /you/! Waiting won't solve anything! You've got to act... you've got to act...

Which is why... I'll be moving on. I'll make this promise come to reality, nothing should stop me, if there was something there'd definitely a detour.

I'm talking to that person right now... Happy for keeping contacts, sad for realizing I've wasted time, hopeful, and scared.

A private conversation, I'd like to keep forever. Exchanging words- meant for only each other, and no one else should know.

1:56 AM
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