Monday, April 28, 2008

Relationships...

Be it family, friends, acquaintances, or what not, one thing Changes it's Meaning.

That thing is "LOVE".

Love, to some, is a blessing of life, while others find it as a curse that foretells disaster.


Now... why am I telling you all this? Especially that I am the kind of guy who'd pick video games over some girl.

Well... I've mentioned it here. I've talked about this "special person" before, and now I'm talking about the same person here.

Some people are busy these days, especially the people in that person's school. Though it's summer, they still have homework and reports, and it's not summer school, but some strange study-program. It makes me think... is UPIS really different than SCQC, the high school I attended? We have our differences, I'm happy-go-lucky, while that person is more studious and hardworking.

I thought I'd forgotten those sad days. I've lived for the better with great friends by my side, while that person is busy with school. I had thought we were just friends after what happened....

But I was wrong...

That person called me up just recently, I was surprised! We talked, tried to catch up to each other... and then it happened...

It's been more than half a year, ever since that fleeting moment... I suddenly remembered it all, remembered what happened. Those days I've counted while being alone, Those minutes or remembering that person's face, the seconds of wanting, sharing, dreaming of such a life!

WHY MUST THIS PERSON TORMENT ME SO!!?

The line between friend, lover, or whatever it is between us, is blurred...

Those words I've read, the sounds I've heard, Visions imagined...
I can't be. It shouldn't! Why must this happen!?

I know what I heard, And to that thought, my heart rushed, I swooned, I felt my body melting. That short scene, that voice of pleasure enchanted me.

I tried replying with the same gesture, but before I could say anything- "You're breathing heavily..." These words came out from the other line. After a few silent and awkward moments, we were back to telling out life stories. Soon after that, that person had to go to bed, considering it was 2AM.

I was Happy, but it'll never work out, I thought. Aside from the known fact that that person is busy with studies, that person is going back to school this year as a senior in high school, while I'm in my third year of college. Another is that we live apart, I still don't know where that person lives. No, don't be mistaken. We've met lots of times in Events and such.

This is probably one of the main reasons why I sink into my own world drowning myself with unnecessary information of video games, anime, manga, and Pokemon.

As night crawls in, Everyone goes back to sleep... I remain awake, stricken once again by Summer Insomnia, I stay alone to myself thinking of the events of that night... my Heart rushes one again to that memory... then I remember the sadness, the pain, and all that. Now I hate night more than ever...

Mornings are different... I woke up this morning, the lights are off but the sun shinning filled it's pace. On the glass of my display cabinet, I saw my reflection... I was Smiling... Holding my pillow tight. That must have been some dream. I can't recall what happened in it though. I was definitely Happy, by Chance it was pure Bliss. It felt Serene...

I know that there will be a time, we'll be together... even if it'll never work out....

1:41 AM
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